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I really hate it when I get out of class early and I have one after it.  I just got out of my lab, which is supposed to go until 1:10, but it is 12:45.  My next class is at 1:25, and i do not have time to do anything in between.  Well, maybe I do, but I do not care to.

So I should not complain.

Okay bye.

Yay!  I am going to Nebraska for Christmas with Justin’s family!  I am really super excited.  This is a big deal.  I get to meet my future in-laws from Nebraska.  I have only ever been to Nebraska for about an hour while passing through.  I hope Amy (his little sister) is okay with me going.  She and I get to share our own hotel room.  I am pretty sure that I will be fine away from my family.  I have never been away before though, so it will be different.  I think I had the flu last year, but I cannot quite remember.  I know I had the flu for something where Justin was in Nebraska.

Anyways, I gotta go figure out something.  Tooda loo!

you know, sometimes i wish i was one of those artsy people.  i would like to wear funky clothes and have dreds.  and are addicted to coffee.

enough of that tangent.

church scavenger hunt sucked last night and that is all i will say about that.

i rode the bus to school today.  the driver was crazy.  you know how some people ‘tap the breaks’?  well this guy was tapping the gas.  and he honked at cars too.  but the car was stupid and deserved it.

i am very glad that i have wireless built into my computer.  i would forget the card if i needed to bring it with me all the time. 

i dont like when people keep their sound on (their computer) in class. 

this is a pretty boring post.  goodbye.

She might dance all night
In a topless bar
Fool around, go too far
But I don’t mind
You see things are not what they appear
‘Cause she only sleeps with me.

She might drink a bit
Lose her way
Crash the car
But come out OK
And my friends might laugh
But they only know what they can see
And she only sleeps with me

Nights on Times Square
Live and on stage
High heels
She feels
That she’s dancin’ for me

And the little bird
Flies from tree to tree
To the highest branch
Where she thinks she’s free
She can have it all
That’s the reason you wouldn’t believe
That she only sleeps with me

There’s a porno book
In the library
Nothin’ ever goes
Were it shouldn’t be
And the world is queer
And the human is strangest of all
And she only sleeps, yeah, she only sleeps
Yeah, she only sleeps with me

November 15th, 2004
2:35pm

Thank Rob for this.  I hope it bores you all to tears

Basics:
Full Name: Amber Jill Radabaugh
Age: 19
Birthday: November 2, 1985
Sex: Female
Children: None
Siblings: 1- Ashley
Nickname: Ambey
Birthplace: St. Paul, MN
Home: Woodbury/Minneapolis MN (depends on the day)
Height: 5′ 3”
Eyes: Hazel, green, gold… like a snakeskin

Hair color: Dark Brown
Worst feeling in the world: To feel completely alone
Best feeling in the world: Holding a newborn… and Love!
Favorite things to do on the weekend: Not homework

Favorites:
Color: NA
number: 42
Radio Station: NA
TV station: Discovery Health
Commercial: Super Bowl
Time of day: After school
Subject: Religion
Teacher: Del Adamson
Clothing Store: AE
Jewelry: Rings
State: MN
Place to Be: With Justin
Meat: Chinese
Veggie: Celery
Ice Cream: No idea
Chip: Lime tortilla ships
Salad Dressing: Ranch
Fast Food: Chinese
Dine In: Red Lobster

Candy: Butterfinger
Grocery Store: Whole Foods
Dog: Beagle
Animal: Panther
Month/Season: November, Summer
Shampoo: Paul Mitchell
Drink: Virgin Margarita
Alcoholic Beverage: NA
Do you have a lucky number: Yes
Do you do drugs: Nope.
Do you smoke: No
Do you drink: No
Do you cuss: Occasionally

Who do you hate: Don’t hate, appreciate
Who hates you: I hope no one
How many buddies are on your buddy list: 36 on the special one, 135 on the other
How many are online right now: 14 + 32
Which ones are you talking to: None
What did you do yesterday: Hung out at my house

What did you do today:  School

What are you doing tomorrow: More school, work
What are you doing this weekend: Waiting in line at Walmart for the Nintendo DS
What did you do last weekend: stuff
What are you gonna do when this is over: Work

Love & Relationships:
Are you currently in love: Very much
Have you ever been in love: Am currently
Your Crush: Justin
First Kiss: Jon
First Boyfriend: Jon
Is there anyone that you would date again: No
Do you believe in love at first sight: Not quite

Friends:
Your closest ones: Justin, Nikki, Celeste, Rob, and others that I cannot think of

The one that lives farthest away: Celeste
The one that lives closest to you: Hmm… Justin
The tallest: Justin
Shortest: Nikki
Most Outgoing: Nikki
One you’ve known the longest: Celeste
Known the shortest: Rob

The LAST:
thing you ate: Saltines
thing you drank: Propel
thing you said: Hmm, I am not sure.
person you saw: My religion classmates
person who called you: Justin
person you called: Mom
person you hugged: Justin
person you kissed: Justin
person to ride in your car: um… no idea
who’s car you rode in: Justin’s
told you they loved you: Justin
movie you watched: US Marshalls
person you gave the finger to: Justin?
person who gave you the finger: NA
person you missed: Nikki
Last book you read: The Bible

Numbers

Number of continents I have visited: 2 I guess
Number of guys I have kissed: 2

Number of guys I have French kissed: 2
Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
Number of piercings: 5
Number of tattoos: 1
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: a couple I guess
Number of scars on my body: Ooo a lot

Number of times a person has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: once
Number of things in my past that I regret: 0
Last movie in the theatre: I do not remember
Last show watched on tv: US Marshalls
Last song heard: hmmm…

When was the last time you…
Smiled?: couple minutes ago
Laughed?: Yesterday
Cried?: couple days ago
Bought something?: Couple days ago

Danced?: Yesterday
Were sarcastic?: Sometime today I’m SURE
Kissed someone?: This morning
Talked to an ex?: Do not remember
Watched your favorite movie?: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Had a nightmare?: Don’t even remember.

Do you…:
Smoke?: No
Do drugs?: No
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yes
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: No
Play an instrument?: Percussion
Believe there is life on other planets?: Yes
Remember your first love?: True love,Yes
Still love him/her?: True love, yes
Read the newspaper?: Everyday
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: 1
Believe in miracles?: Yes
Believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever?: Definitely
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Oh yes
Consider love a mistake?: No
Like the taste of alcohol?: Is No idea

Believe in astrology?: No
Believe in magic?: Nope
Believe in God?: Yes
Pray?: Yes
Go to church?: Twice a week
Have any secrets?: Yes
Have any pets: 3 Cats
Do well in school?: Yeah
Go to or plan to go to college?: Yes
Have a major?: Family Social Science
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: Yes
Wear hats?: Sometimes
Hate yourself?: No
Have an obsession?: No
Have a secret crush?: Nope
Collect anything?: State Quarters, but I haven’t gotten any in a while.
Have a best friend?: Yes
Wish on stars?: Yes
Like your handwriting?: Sometimes

Have any bad habits?: I think so
Care about looks?: Yes
Boy/girlfriend’s looks?: What does it matter, he is gorgeous!
Believe in witches?: No
Believe in Satan?: Yes
Believe in ghosts?: Not sure…

I think I am losing the updating contest. 

Sorry to my viewers who are becoming bored with me.

That is all.

So this week has actually kinda sucked.  Let’s see why…

Monday- Went to one class.  Hung around the building.  Went to another class.  I really do not remember Monday at all.  Was I alive on Monday?  Hmm… I know I would have had Chipotle with Justin.  And I watched tv.  Maybe Monday was an okay day.

Tuesday- My birthday.  Election Day.  I voted with my mom.  We went and got a cake for me.  Went home.  Justin showed up and we went to dinner at Fridays.  Oh, my grandma gave me some money between those events.  Dinner was nice.  Went home.  Cake was nice.  I did some homework.  The day just sucked though.  I do not think I am ever very happy on my birthday.  I am not sure why.  I do not know if it is that I am just never satisfied or what.  But my birthdays just kinda all around suck.  Do not get me wrong, I love spending the time with my family and such.  But no more toys and lots of two dollar wrapped presents.  Maybe birthdays will get better when I have kids of my own.  We shall see.

Wednesday- That was yesterday… um…  Probably aced a test.  Left that class early cause I was panicking.  I was accepted to study abroad.  Only catch was it cost four thousand dollars.  It is not like I have that laying around anywhere.  I think I stalked Justin to, but I could not find him.  I did find him at five thirty though, when it was time to go to church.  We got in the car and drove.  I was probably grouchy.  Went to church.  My sister was lost, but we found her.  Had a nice small group.  Went back to my house.  Snuggled and ate Radabaugh dip with Justin, which was nice.  So Wed. night was good and day was bad.

Thursday (today)- Woke up.  Skipped a class.  Justin drove us here.  That was okay.  I was quiet, as usual this week.  Went to class.  That was decent.  Went to a nice spot on the floor and worked on an assignment with some class mates.  Went to Chipotle.  Went to class.  Went home.  Cleaned, did laundry, organized.  Went to the Rec and swam.  That was nice and refreshing.  Went to the Village Wok with Justin and co.  While walking back to the dorm got into a tif with Justin.  Put me in a very bad mood.  Made me again quiet.  I really didn’t mean to make him mad.  But I never do mean to.  Got home.  Got my period. (and for all of you who want to blame my mood this past week on PMS… shut up.)  Wrote Justin an email, cause I put things best in writing.

So as you can see.  For me, this week has sucked.  Hopefully it can only get better.  Which is not true, for it can get worse.  But hopefully it does not.  Tomorrow I start working at Marshall Field’s as a Santa’s Helper.  I am really very excited for this.  I would like it to go well.  On Saturday I am going with Justin’s family to Iowa to watch the Nebraska football game.  That may be fun.  I am sure it will be.  Sitting in a car for all those hours watching Justin work on his computer.  Yay.  It will be fun.  It may sound like I am trying to convince myself of that, but I am not.  I believe it.

So now I am just waiting for Justin to call me.  Why is it that when you get into a fight, he says, "Don’t worry, I still love you."  It drives me crazy.  1. I never thought he didn’t. 2. Him loving me doesn’t solve anything.  3.  … um … something.  It just makes me upset when he says that.  Oh well.

So out of my grouchy mood, came a long post.  That is good I suppose.  Out of my grouchy mood, tho, I want to scream.  And cry.  At the same time. 

I hate money.  I just thought that I would throw that in. 

Someday, when I have children, I really hope that I can support them and make them happy.  I do not think that money is what is supposed to make you happy, or what should make you happy.  But it does.  It is a sad fact of life.  This fact of life is where I am going to end.

Goodnight all and I hope your weeks were better than mine was.